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Grace Flows Down


His Grace is sufficient for me.

it’s going to be 2weeks now since Ashton’s born and he’s nothing like his older sister! Arielle was an easy baby… an angel, she hardly ever cried even when she’s hungry. Ashton however cries very very VERY loudly when he’s hungry, especially when he’s hungry and not getting his milk. this time i’ve chosen to breastfeed baby fully and so far it’s proven to be quite a challenge for me.

some days are good when he’s latching on properly, other nights are horrible when he cries and cries and forgets how to latch and that made me panic and frustrated as well. with sleepless nights and body aches, he’s being a big bully when he doesn’t stop crying (to put it nicely). every time i feel like losing it, i look up to God and ask for H.E.L.P.!!! short simple prayers get answered all the time, and i’m so grateful i’m still able to sit and find time to blog about this, otherwise i think i would have already gone crazy pengsan (fainted)!!

this is an old song; heard it in one of Passion’s live concert album that’s in my pc and it captured me immediately. it’s simple yet comforting. i found the vid from YouTube and cried after watching it. So great is God’s love for us. Thank You God for Your faithfulness and Your grace.


When life takes a sharp turn…


how do we deal with the consequences of it? do we simply look up to God and without any hesitation just say, ‘Your will be done’, or do we contemplate and begin to question? when life takes a sharp unexpected turn, our fundamentals will be shaken without a doubt. 

today we received a shocking and tragic news about an old friend from UKM who had just passed on, leaving his wife and 2 toddlers without a husband and a father. he was a good man; cheerful and warm-hearted, musically inclined and a good brethren. it is still so unreal that he’s left us so early on in life. we can only pray for his family for life to go on and for faith to be strong. 

reminds me of a question i asked my dad recently:

pa, have you ever wondered where we will go when we die?

his reply:

Only the living has to suffer! There are so many versions of where we go when we die. So far nobody can testify the truth, so let us worry about our living commitments than to worry about that. Because nobody has gone there and come back to tell the story.

truth is, when we die, we will either suffer even more than when we’re alive or otherwise, but heaven is only for the gods and goddesses and it is unattainable. just like how i was taught in Taoism/Buddhism when i was young – when you die, you will become/face whatever it is that you have done on earth, there is no escape. for Taoism, it is which level/kind of punishment you will receive in hell, while from the Buddhism that i learnt; you will become some kind of ghost or animal depending on how heavy your sins are on earth. whichever way, you don’t get to win. 

isn’t it easier if we know we actually have options? there is a way to heaven and it only requires us to believe. 

Jesus answered, ‘I am the way, the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me. John 14:6

For Christ died for sins once for all, the righteous for the unrighteous, to bring you to God. He was put to death in the body, but made alive by the Spirit. 1 Peter 3:18

we believe our friend is in heaven now, and it’s comforting in a way to know that he’s in a better place and that we will meet again when our time on earth is also done.



i thought this song is superb. ‘The God I Know’ – City Harvest Church; like it a lot! 

honestly, i really really miss the worship we have back in KAOG. there were live music, and we could clap or dance or lift our hands whenever we wish – a far cry from where i used to attend church in Penang (Burmah Road Gospel Hall). i wonder how or when i’ve become so ‘charismati-zed’. 

attending church here brings me back to the days at church in Penang; it reminds me of how i could worship without loud music, without the ‘essential’ instruments, without having to clap even. because worship also comes in a form of reverance – i don’t always need to lift my hands to show how much i want to praise God, it’s the heart that matters most. the thing is, i got so used to having those ‘environment’ for worship in KAOG that i’ve become somewhat lost in service here in a Lutheran church. 

then i start asking myself:

why has music become such an important part of worship for me? am i able to worship just the same without it? if not, why? 

‘Heart of Worship’ by Matt Redman speaks volumes about this. i really need to re-consider and check myself.

Deserted on Christmas


it’s such a culture shock for us – to see everything closed and streets and highways totally deserted!! it was nearly like a ghost town! 

yesterday after the Christmas Eve service at church, Aylwin decided we should eat out – but thankfully the day before we stocked up on groceries coz, in the end after driving around, there was no place to go as EVERYTHING was closed. everyone was at home with their family having their ‘reunion’ dinner like us chinese during CNY’s eve. 

we really didn’t expect it to be like this coz we assumed that things would be more ‘happenin’ here since Christmas is such a big thing here. we thought there’d be street parties, fireworks and stuff like that, but… guess we were wrong. the celebrations in Malaysia is such a big contrast now to how Slovaks celebrate Christmas. it’s without a doubt a much much more quiet event here than back home and nothing like what we expected. it’s sort of a bit like an anti-climax for us… the talk and atmosphere were all built up for Christmas, and then when the time comes for the big bang – all of a sudden there’s … nothing; silence – no parties, no fireworks, no loud cheers/laughter in the streets, not even carol singers! 

confused a bit now; i honestly don’t know which i’d prefer – i was afraid that there might be loud fireworks at midnight that might rouse Arielle from her slumber; but what’s happening now was the furthest thing on my mind. i suppose in a way, it’s good not to have any distractions. that way we can really focus on the reason for Christmas in the first place – our Lord Jesus Christ’s birth, His life, His sacrifice on the Cross, His Gift of Eternal Life; and how these have impacted and changed the lives of those who have come to believe in Him.

I thank Thee


it’s a big change from being a working mom to a full-time mom… especially when i have to stay home all day until the weekend comes, and then, i had to depend on Ayl to take me out. being an outdoor & an outgoing person, having no friends to chat and share life with, brought me to a state of utter loneliness. in my mind, i couldn’t find anyone to go to if there was an emergency…IF! 

so i became lost and depressed 2 weeks ago; i ask myself questions that took me further down into the hole, but at the same time i struggled to stay focused and positive. it was difficult; but i thank God that He has brought me through it in such a short time. we have only been here for 3 months!! these verses comes to my mind each time i start to ponder and pity myself:- 

Philippians 4:6 (NIV) – Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God



i thank Thee first of all, for the Peace that settles in my heart;


i thank Thee for the Joy, even in the midst of despair;


i thank Thee for Thy Grace, that is sufficient each and every day;


i thank Thee for Thy abundance and not just Thy providence; 


i thank Thee for Thy faithfullness, in Thee i can always depend;


i thank Thee that no matter what the circumstances, Thou are always in control;


i thank Thee for Thy complete love, compelling me to repent and change;


i thank Thee; i thank Thee

how come? how long?


today’s wordpress’ top post was regarding our Malaysian political arena. as i was reading some of the many comments which it has attracted, there was particularly one that caught my attention. it’s disappointing to know that there are still idiots out there who are fighting for their own race to rule, (even though they’re the majority and they’re already ruling the country) and is still believing the claim that other races other than the majority are immigrants and should be going back to their respective homelands.

what generation and time are we in now, for someone to still have that kind of mentality? how did the claim come about and how did it started? what is the belief of Islam when they say ‘all men are equal’?